You know, I have 3 or 4 drafts of posts saved, and somehow over the past few weeks, I haven’t managed to finish any of them. There is a lot going on with me lately. A lot of changes, a lot of ups and downs, a lot of time spent with those close to me, and a lot of time for thinking.
Sometimes I wonder why it is that our heads and our hearts don’t always match up? Why can something logically make sense, can be almost exactly what you’re looking for, and yet, our emotions, our feelings, our guts tell a different story? Why are the pains and issues inflicted on us months (or years) ago still affecting us in current situations? Or maybe, it’s just something (or Someone) telling us that it’s not the right time, it’s not the right person, it’s not the right moment. I don’t know.
All I know, is that I keep searching, searching for more, and I keep pushing forward and trying to allow myself to heal, to move on, to dream, to hope. I hope one day I can look back on these days and see the bigger plan.