Guys, I’m going to be real blunt with you right now: I need this f#cking program to be done. Finished. Over. Around lunchtime yesterday (day 28), I made my lunch and my stomach decided to stage a coup against me. Since then, it’s been doing flip-flops on me. Nothing (that I can eat) sounds good to me, and even just the thought of certain foods makes me nauseous. Because of this, I haven’t been eating hardly anything which is terrible! I’m not one of those people who wants to starve myself to lose 2 pounds. No, I love food! And I respect my body and the fact that it needs sustenence, but the last 35 hours have been really rough. My stomach rumbles, I try to put something in it, and it just doesn’t sit right.
All of this is causing a great deal of mental breakdown in me. In fact tonight, I nearly caved. I mean, I’m basically there, right? But, I’m a person who loves rules and I know I would be so mad at myself if I didn’t make it the full 30 when I’ve been doing so well up until now.
I managed to make it to CrossFit yesterday (day 28), but today, felt like I should skip since I’m not fueling my body properly. I don’t want to cause more damage. So, I just read a lot tonight and now I’m heading to bed early. I just need to make it another 24 hours and then I can go to bed again and wake up a free woman.